“But there’s a story behind everything. How a picture got on a wall. How a scar got on your face. Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother’s story, because hers is where yours begin.” – Mitch Albom
I love birthdays. My mother did too. It’s an entire day dedicated to showing someone you love how much they mean to you. Mom instilled such a strong love for birthdays in me, and I spent every week before February 13 trying to figure out just how I could make her feel as special as she truly was.
This is her 6th birthday in heaven, and I just can’t believe it. Her absence is so magnified on days like this (the entire month of February is really). However, I decided 6 years ago that I would always allow this day to still belong to her. Will and I will head to get her favorite coffee drink this morning. There are lilies (her favorite) in my kitchen. There are cheese biscuits from Fresh Market ready to be snacked on today. I will wear some of her jewelry. And hopefully, I will live my life the way she tried to teach me – with grace, class, a servant’s heart, and love for my heavenly father. Here’s to another year of appreciating and loving the legacy she left to us. My heavenly birthday letter to her. . .
Happy Birthday Mom!
You always said it should be the first thing someone hears when they wake up and the last thing they hear before they go to sleep. Daddy reminded me of that this morning when he texted at 12:47am – “Happy Birthday Gigi”! You taught us well. I know your birthday in heaven is AMAZING because you made birthdays pretty great while you were here with us. That makes me so happy. Of course there are still tears and heartache because we just miss you so much.
The kids are so great. Your Will-a-bug is so much taller than me! His love for learning and music inspire me to be a better teacher and musician all the time. We still talk about our favorite Gigi stories. He has fond memories and always will. Mom, he is going to be able to drive in 3 months. Remember how much anxiety that gave you? Well, I’m exactly there now. Jesus take the wheel, literally.
Your Char Char – Mom, she is a hoot! You would love spending time with her! She still says your name in her prayers every night, and while I know she was so young when everything happened, she hears so much about you and feels like she truly remembers it. I REALLY need you a lot when it comes to her. She tries my patience daily and it reminds me so much of how I did the exact same thing! For the millionth time, I AM SORRY.
As for me – Mom, I am trying to embrace change. You know how much I resist it. God is really showing me that change can make us stronger. It keeps me on my toes and makes me work harder. It seems like we have had so many areas of change in our lives this past year. Oh the times I wished I could call and vent to you! Change definitely strengthens faith and dependence on God. We have really had to lean on Him a lot this year. I am so very thankful for it all. I promise my bitterness about you not being here no longer exists. The pain of missing you will always exist, but the longer I am a Mother, the more I realize how fleeting time truly is. I am so thankful for the 35 years God gave me with you.
Gosh, I miss you so much. I know I will mention your name a million times today as I do every day. Please know how thankful I am for the things you taught me and for the love you gave to me. I am so much better because of it.
I love you my sweet, beautiful Gigi,
Your Amy Lou